Black Rose♥

2010-10-29T11:06:00.000+08:00

It's not easy to be me. Each and everyone of you out there can have your 101 reasons to tell me I'm wrong but I'm gonna tell you that you're wrong. There is no slowly or take your time or do it one thing at a time, there is no time at all.

Memminger's my new best friend. Been having a little too much of those lately.

Tonight's another party night, awesome!

2010-10-25T16:40:00.000+08:00

It's not your fault because you cannot deliver, it's my fault for asking/expecting too much.

I envy all around me. I cause my own heartbreaks. I have myself to blame.

Work's bad :(

Life's worse :((

and i wish i was blind and deaf and mute, this way i'd never have to see and hear and speak, maybe not even feel.

2010-10-08T12:12:00.000+08:00

My life is currently speeding straight into destruction mode, feels like I'm losing myself. I haven't been able to manage my emotions of late, I would go into a rampage at the slightest matter. I do not have time anymore. ZERO.

One month after National Day.

2010-09-14T02:32:00.001+08:00

Remember how fascinating this was??

National Day was a month back, but it's only today I decided to take time out to sort out the zillions of outdated pictures.

Spent National Day over at Marina Bay Sands with K and J. Buffet dinner first at Rise restaurant with K's family. Then it was followed by a painstaking trip just to get up to our rooms, you had to queue just to take the lift. Nonetheless, we got to our room just in time to watch the parade. Best part of the night, the view of the fireworks and the aerial display. The fireworks display wow-ed me totally, it was right in front of you and felt like it's a celebration just for you.

When everything else ended, we decided to have a few drinks at amber 21. I love hanging out with the girlfriends,I don't need alot, just a few, the few who can keep me happy forever.

2010-09-05T19:06:00.000+08:00

Last night was another awesome night with J and K. Saw lotsa people!! First stop was taboo where we stayed t watch the fashion show of half naked men, saw ZQ, louisa, efren and song. Then walked down to jollyfrog bistro to say hi to izad and dayat.

Next was nana, where we saw ganeshcross rosemary tan and orochi, HAHA!!! We met up with HW and A. Stayed there till closing and they guys from SC came down as well. The best part of th night, BREAKFAST BUFFET AT MARINA BAY SANDS HOTEL RISE RESTAURANT! Luxurious life really, but gotta snap back to reality when i come back t CCK.

Tonight's mahj with FF with idk who else other than james at bedok, damn awesome, I LOVE MAHJ!!! B's not really very happy with me staying out so often lately, honestly i'd control if I had work to do and stuff, but right now when i'm sucha free women, why can't he just let me be for a moment, haha, i didn't get drunk anyway for the past three times that i went drinking.

I have pictures both in the phone and camera, but idk why m so lazy and i'd better shower now before i'm late for mahj, FF's gonna slap me. hoho.

2010-09-04T16:19:00.000+08:00

Last night was a good night with jane at Jab 1 and Dragonfly. We're th random phatkids, we have impromptu dinner dates and drinking sessions. HAHA!

Caught Haunted changi with Jane, K and Huiyun. Th show was a total waste of our time, please don't watch it.

I need good fooood today. Where are you J? We're planning on having Shokudo for dins, i've got cravings for dim sum though, probably have that for after drinks tummy satisfaction:)

I've a friend named Ganeshcross Rosemary Tan and he's so funny i just feel like punching his face over and over again. HEH!

I'm having a good break now before I start my new job on the 15th september.

And lastly, MARCELLA YONG YOU BETTER COME OUT SOON, I WANNA SEE YOUR FACE!

2010-08-29T14:42:00.005+08:00

I don't know where I can find a friend who's more retarded than he is, seriously!

2010-08-28T20:36:00.002+08:00

Actually I'm kinda happy with my life now, happy to know I have the best Phatgirls around me, happy to know I'll wake up to my favourite person and smell. I'm just short of a job that I love & enjoy and MONEY-never enough.

B just bought me a notebook, for our 1 year anniversary(which obviously he doesn't really care about) and my birthday(which is hitting in a month). Super awesome. I have the best boyfriend in the whole wide world and I thank him for everything he has done for me.

I just finished an entire season of GLEE-22 episodes. I'm waiting for GG season 4 now, I thought it'd be out by th time this notebook came to my hands, but NO, damn it, cannot wait.

Okay, I got sudden cravings for chippy BBF, i'm gonna go and get them now!!!

2010-07-29T16:39:00.002+08:00

Caught th jack neo movie last night at Lot 1 with th fat boyf-normal, not very exciting but it was funny, quite boring actually, 2/5 seriously.

HDB is such an irritant, one loan and they have to make me submit sooooo many documents luckily this dickson guy gets back to me very quickly. Mommy is making alot of noise cuz it's causing her quite abit of inconvenience.

I haven't seen the phat K since I returned from my trip, too busy or what this girl. Oh, and Fer as well, all busy schooling and working.

I really think that I have one of th best boyfriend but sometimes he can be sucha wreck I just wanna ignore him, like now. ANNOYED ME BIG BIG TIME!

It's 45 minutes to the end of thursday's work, 5:30 please come soon, why do I always have to countdown to it? haha!

2010-07-28T16:51:00.002+08:00

Hongkong trip is over and we gotta go back there again, there are so many places i have yet t step foot in. The humongous buddha, the peak, disneyland......

Haven't had time to put up the pictures yet, but it was a gooood trip, so good i told B that i don't wanna come back to singapore because i feel that he loves me more when we're in hongkong. He'll never ever let me wander off on my own and he holds on t my hands no matter what, how sweet:)

I thought there will be mountains of work to do when i came back, amazingly, there was none. Where else can you ever find a job like this? And, I have been doing nothing everyday, basically i just watch movies on W.TV or I do my own things, NO WORK AT ALL.

1 minute to 5:30, gotta run!

2010-07-05T10:41:00.002+08:00

Didn't meet up with th girls last weekend, spent it working at Supperclub instead. But they popped by on Saturday.

Saturday was an awesome dinner at MBS hotel's rise restaurent with K and friends. Th oysters, mussels, scallops, octopus, prawns 5/5. Th desserts, their marshmellows were gooood(for a person who actually don't like t eat marshmellows) 4/5. The Asian food 3/5, watery laksa but yummy roasted duck meat. Th waitresses there were soooooo efficient in clearing th plates we were done with. Apart from th wonderful food, we even had a spectacular view of th fireworks due to th NDP preview goin on at Padang to make our dinner an even better experience, the view would have been better in th room which was on th 44th storey though.

Can't wait for next week to come, hongkong and Macau with th cousin and aunt and loveliest boyfriend. Heh! And I know how much this Gwen wants to slap mr for having no time t talk to her regarding th trip.

Coming sunday marks our first anniversary and there will be a solar eclipse on that day. There's no link but solar eclipse are rare and I'm happy it's happening on th same day and it makes me feel like this is gonna be th best boyfriend m gonna have, ever:))) Th fat boyfriend better make sure he make me a happy girl that day it else I'm not gonna give him his gift. Yes, I'm threatening him.

Also, I havent't seen FYJZ in th longest time. Miss this shorty
so much. Haha.

Lunchtime in an hour. Great.

2010-06-24T17:57:00.003+08:00

Th only time i ever turn to doing this is when i get really upset and voicing it out doesn't help at all.

I hate staying in your house, not because i hate your house. I hate it when i don't go to work and your parents have much more t say and ask than my own mother. I hate it when i go out late at night and th people who are going on and on in my ears are your parents rather than my own. I feel tortured staying in your house with your mom this your mom that, your dad this and your dad that. Th more you do it, th more it's gonna make me dislike them. It is only due t th fact that i still respect them as your parents that i still answer and entertain to their naggings, and i know thay care(sort of). Honestly, it is driving me up th wall. Best of all, list me ten things i could do to keep myself entertained when i'm bored:) I couldn't do it.

And you, always thinking that you have gone all out, did your best to make this relationship work and make time for me while you juggle with your work and friends. WHAT exactly have you done, please tell me about it. When was th last time YOU asked me out for a movie? In fact, WHEN was th freaking last time you asked me out? Just th two of us, if i have forgotten, that makes it 100%, you won't even remember. Th cold hard truth is, you don't make me happy anymore. Even YOUR friends would make me happier than you did. If this is what was intended from th day we became "in a relationship" status, don't spoil me like how you did at the start. What do you do when i tell you things like this? "OKAY, FINE." and turn away, not giving a fuck at all, AT ALL. Th fact is, you don't care anymore. I have been telling you more I HATE YOUs than I LOVE YOUs, that is definitely not a sign of a healthy relationship. FACE IT, You are simply self centered and care only about yourself and ignorant t those around YOU, and that definitely includes me. All you have now is your fucking job, your fucking god damned work that i hate so much. Don't tell me i'm suffocating you, because clearly, i am not. I don't stop you from going out with friends, I don't stop you from needing time alone, basically, I DON'T STOP YOU FROM DOING ANYTHING. Let's say even if we did go out, when is it that you won't give me a face and tell me you're tired? when is it that you'll go out with me happily and laugh with me? I'm tired of accomodating t you all th time. I feel disgusted going out with you when i always see you going out with your friends and you can be so happy and cheerful. It has been known and forgotten to you that i've been on gastric pills and when i tell you i'm hungry, you tell me not t eat cuz m fat, THAT IS SO SWEET AND HELPFUL AND THOUGHTFUL of you. It's been two months since i started at shaw tower, How many times have you sent me t work? how many times have you picked me up from work? Have you ever come t meet me for lunch? I'm sick and tired of having t spoon feed you with everything, don't you have this thing called initiative?

I would have been very happy with you like you were all i wanted. But you are screwing this up, you are screwing us up with all your fucking i only wanna fucking god damn work and nothing else. And you know, seriously, FCUK YOU AND YOUR GOD DAMNED WORK. I am sick and tired of this damn line and if you want t put this relationship in jeaopardy, I can do it with you! You go to work early and come home late, i put up with it, but why in the world must I still put up with nonsense when i am at home and resting, i can't have peace. I have so many rules and regulations to keep up with in your house. It is driving me crazy. Notice the mood swings i've been having? I don't think you're that blind, but you don't give two flying fucks. TYVM.

I really don't feel like talking to you at all. Don't ask me what happen and th likes, i'm sick and tired of spoon feeding you with information. Wanna see how destruction starts? you missed it, it has started. These pent up feelings are gonna come flying back into your face.

But I never told you, what i should have said, I just held it in. And now, I just miss everything about you.

2010-05-11T13:26:00.000+08:00

I MISS GNM BADLY!!!

@JIANANA

@PHATKEED

@SCARLETSTARXZ

2010-04-22T18:29:00.004+08:00

If you leave a bitten apple for too long, it'll be inedible, rotten. I always think that my life sucks, big time.

So it's been Monday mj @ Cheryl's, Tuesday mj @ Marcie's, Wednesday mj @ Marcie's. Total winnings of $80 :))) Ultimate happiness.

Th weather hasn't been looking good these days, just when i decide to dedicate this whole week to shed some kilos. Whyyyyyy?

I don't like t talk to you now, I hate MBS ttm. FML.

2010-04-17T04:07:00.006+08:00

See the grumpy face with th beautiful tiles, i could've won. damn it.

She calls herself THE JUDGE. She's giving th judge face.

Tonight I couldn't get t sleep. So i got online, and having a nice long conversation with my sister and cousin.

K and I bought our running shoes on tuesday, awesome. Afterwhich was mahjong at marcie's again with th girls. <3>

So Monday marks th start of healthy slimming since we spent a certain amount on th shoes. Totally looking forward, i hope.

2010-04-05T13:56:00.002+08:00

Promise to go prawning was fulfiled but poor B only had only an hour of sleep after prawning before he had to get up and go to work. Was it the new rod's luck or that we're just lucky? Prawns got hooked one after another, super ecstatic. But bad migraine had to spoil it all, damn.

Sometimes I get really annoyed with myself, why do i work my brains with so much redundant things? I don't know the directions, get me a director.

Kris' 21st birthday at Changi's SAFRA tonight, baby says he'll come back t pick me up and i feel quite bad about it. Then again, I'll be heading down Tampines t find mommy so I guess it should be fine.

2010-04-04T12:49:00.003+08:00

GG, i lost my phone. damnszxs it.

I guess i'll have t start engaging in healthy activities such as fishing and prawning and mahjong-ing instead of drinking away. B says he'd rather i lose all th money away on mahjong than me spending th money on drinks.

Th whole of saturday was spent out fishing on th sea with K, D and B on D's boat. Friday was losing my dear iphone before CLASH OF THE TITANS@0000hrs. Love th show, love it ttm. Supperclub thereafter, home at 4:45 and slept only at 5am when we had t get up at 8am.

I managed to get up anyhow and had t pull th fatty out of bed. It was all worth th little sleep that we had, fantastic trip with fantastic people like K.

It all started with a sunny morning and th sky turned threatening in th afternoon. Starting from Ponggol Marina where th boat was parked, we passed Pulau Ubin, saw th celestail resort then made a stop at one of th kelongs on th sea t get live baits and ice. Next destination was seas near Tekong where we made a few stops along th way t try our luck. Due t th poor weather, we didn't have much luck in getting fishes. At th end of it, th total catch was only 2. But, i was happy enough, it was a great day with people i love th most.

Back t th dock at about 6pm, th guys did a little clean up for th boat and off t Changi Village t re-spool their reels, and and and baby bought me pretty purple prawning rod!!

Wordy post cuz i lost my phone and cam, nothing for me t snap.

Th Shack@Sentosa later fo izad's birthday cum gathering for th ex-km8 staff. Should be great fun.

2010-04-02T17:07:00.002+08:00

I have this awesome new love for the sambal fried rice at yew tee point. It's weird how the restaurant's halal but they actually have char siew rice.

Last minute decision mahjong at marcie's place late last night, lost $2.50. One of th liveliest mahjong ever, I officially love playing mahjong with the girlfriends instead of th guys because they always get too serious with th game.

Left G.spa, don't like the environment. Waiting for the call from my sister's company, i'm currently whiling my time away doing nothing:)

Mommy's birthday coming soon, 7th april. Who's coming? Intending to bring her to supperclub and drown her with lotsa alcohol. *evil smile*

I officially miss alcohol. Really, i do.

Off for sambal fried rice. bye.

2010-03-19T23:08:00.003+08:00

Singapore Zoological Gardens + Fish Spa

Some kind of grilled squid, delicious.

2010-03-18T23:04:00.003+08:00

Trip to th zoo with my fatty on tuesday, spells H A P P Y.

Baby says i gotta write a compo of our day at th zoo, 300 words. Plan was t get up at 10am and probably reach th zoo at about 12, but smart him decided t use th computer till 4am and, just as expected, he wouldn't be able t crawl out of his comfy sofa bed.

We made it there just in time to catch th elephant show, love it. Huge and not cute(because boyf thinks i am annoying when i use cute t describe ALL animals), th show they presented makes me fall in love with them.

It was a really really wonderful day, one thing i might never understand, why must his face be such a gloomy shade of dark which says, "this is boring, shouldn't have came".

So, we saw otter, orang utan, leopard, puma, white tiger, lion, python, kangeroo, emu, giraffe, seal, POLAR BEAR, giant turtle, hippo, rhino, rabbit, flamingo, parrot, chimpanzee, komodo dragon and anyway, th usual animals in our zoo which is a waste of time naming them all.

Smoking was prohibited in th zoo, but we manage t sneak a few sticks, like underage smokers, must hide away from th public.

KFC for dinner at th zoo and for th first time, i had t queue for close to half an hour just t get my three piece chicken meal. There were only two counters open and in front of them were two lines of twenty people each. Smart.

Then it was chinatown for fish spa, baby's virgin trip, hoho. I have pictures but too lazy t get th wires needed t connect th phone t the com. Initially, we shared th same tank of fishes where my feet were surrounded by more than three quarter th fishes and baby's barely have fishes, poor boy. So he decided t abandon me and use th other tank of fishes where he became a delightful boy:) His feet surrounded by all th fishes.

Yesterday was supperclub followed by velvet and back t supperclub. Drunk as usual, nothing funny anymore.

I miss my fat boyfriend. He's working at supperclub now, must be flirting with all th pretty party girls.

I shall only drink on birthdays and weddings and gatherings and th likes.
I shall not drink because i feel like it.
I shall not drink excessively at any point of my life from now on.
I will try to promise th above three points because my boyfriend hates it and i looove him ttm<3<3<3 (he's not gonna believe me, definitely)

2010-03-14T23:33:00.003+08:00

FMLTTM, i mean it.

Why th flying fuck must i even see it and now m really not feeling good anymore, not for th next few days. Really hate myself, you know th feeling when you never intended t find or see something, then it comes popping right in front of you, would you have closed it without going through th contents at all??

Feels as though you're gonna turn me into her, freaky.

I really wanna hate you, you know?
I really wanna cry, you know??

2010-03-14T17:59:00.002+08:00

I haven't done this in a long time, work's been well enough but company's fucked up. With terms and conditions changing all th time and staff turnover is damn high.

After working at th spa for a month and going back t supperclub t work one month later, i realised i sort of lost my life, so i will be again, on th lookout for a new job cuz this job doesn't give me satisfaction at all.

Fatty's no longer working at XW anymore. While waiting for th start of his new job, he's working at supperclub:) i like:)))

I really really miss drinking with th girls, i love BQ with FF and Zouk/Velvet/phuture with K.

Have you ever felt very upset over ridiculous matters?? I do, all th time, even now and idkw.

;money&worthiness over satisfaction, that's you.
;satisfaction over money&worthiness, that's me, now you get?

2010-01-27T17:59:00.002+08:00

I got a job now:)

Nobody's gonna be nagging at me everyday anymore, hoohoo.

Why gossip girl don't have, so upset.

Oh, prawning on monday night with james, FF, mommy and A, caught about 80 prawns, gobble prawns to my hearts content. yummsssss.

Boyf says he wanna get prawning rods for each one of us, like for what? waste money only.

AND HE'S REALLY ANNOYING ALL TH TIME!!! BUT STILL LOVE.

2010-01-24T16:57:00.002+08:00

Line's back on hand, thanks to mummy loveeeeeee:) She paid up my bills, so harpee.

Work at Supperclub on wed's, fri's and sat's. Been good, really good, i'm enjoying it very much in fact.

I've been eating alot recently, idk why. Everybody's calling me fat and it makes me so upset.

From this site, it's definitely obvious how mundane and boorish my life has become. I have totally nothing to share anymore, so wtf.

i'm banned from lowcut tops, short dresses/skirts, drinking, staying out late. zzz, maybe not fully banned but still.

And last night, i finally manage t have a good night and waking up feeling refreshed.

A's off day tomorrow, I'm gonna make him bring me for lor mee and Hachiko.

Meeting mommy laterzxzsx.

2010-01-20T14:19:00.002+08:00

After 10 days of moving t boyf's place, I finally have access t th internet. Honestly, life without TV, fine. Life without internet, fine. BUT LIFE WITHOUT BOTH TV AND INTERNET IS NOT FINE!

I'm currently doing part-time at supperclub, just for th time being.

I realised a major change in my life, feels that my mom and I have been closer than ever, dkw. I feel weird sometimes, honestly. But this was what i always wanted, isn't it?

I miss K, no more avenue7 and i can't wait for a new house for all of us except for frankie:)

To-do list
Get a job(if you realise it's on my resolution and every single one of my to do list but still not done)

2010-01-10T14:47:00.002+08:00

Th last-est post before i leave t yewtee, my house is five sections of empty space now. Bye, friends, good friends, best friends, amazing friends. Haha, i sound like I'm gonna die.

Anyway, my items are th last t move. And, i gotta empty my lunch box before my father comes back t bring me t yewtee. weeeee........

2010-01-08T13:49:00.002+08:00

Th place i used t call home will never be, anymore. We're all gonna be staying at different places. Mommy, jonathan and dominick will be at sengkang. Jasmine will be at marcus' place in Hougang. Whistle will be at FF's house in sengkang. AND ME, IN YEW TEE!!! I'm so far away from everybody, my friends and my family.

It's been a good two months back at my home, baby's newly renovated room is definitely gonna be looking awesomeeeeee, can't wait.

I've just started on packing my stuff, when we gotta evacuate th house by 10th, smart.

Fever yesterday night, makes me feel so awful, and when i'm feeling good now, i gotta pack all those dusty stuff that probably has been in th corner of my room for th past 20 years, haha. I'm gonna fall sick again.

I find myself very annoying sometimes, cuz i get upset over nothing.

back t packing, ttyl.

2010-01-07T04:23:00.002+08:00

;ithinkyoudon'twantmeanymore:(

School has started and Dominick has gone t Montfort Secondary just like Jonathan. Big boys now....

XF and Xiong's over at my place now, doing nothing.

My baby's not in a beautiful mood today:( poor boy.

I take th alarm clock's place today, so i'm still up.

2010-01-05T05:40:00.002+08:00

FUCK YOU AGAIN.

:(

Sometimes, really, sometimes just think before you speak, think bout th words and th way it's gonna come out of your mouth before you let them out. Doesn't mean you're always right even if you manage t prove that point most of th time, it just might not be. Sorry, but i really think we don't see eye t eye on alot of matters. GOD DAMN IT!

I know that i've got issues, but you're pretty messed up too.

2010-01-04T05:44:00.001+08:00

Fuck you. upset. I'm not pleased. Life's a son of a bitch, now.

2010-01-03T09:01:00.003+08:00

Here's th th first post for the year 2010. May there be good times for everyone of my precious, love, darlings, families, friends etc.... ah anyway for everybody.

Last night, did steamboat at katong, th tomyum was fantastic, tho th prices are a little higher than average, all in all th soup settled well with my tongue and that makes it all worth it. BQ with FF, K, marc, xiong, ming and fan after. Honestly, i really didn't wanna drink but for th fact that FF wants t go and K and marc agree with going down, so down t BQ we went.

Wanted t wait for baby t finish work at kovan but i screwed up in th end, making him rather upset i guess. hoho.

I just started on twitter recently and i am such a noob. roar. Jianana is super non-stop hits on twitter, really.

and i have one more thing t add t my new year resolution, DIET(very very very important because my baby says that if i become a big fat women, he's not gonna want me anymore, haha)

HAPPY NEW YEAR, iloveyou!

2009-12-30T01:08:00.005+08:00

Heard and read th news, my condolences to Augustine's family. It definitely came as a big blow t his family and a shock t friends around. Hopefully they can stay strong through this period of grief and sorrow. We all know you and your mom will be looking over your family and friends. Take great care. You've been dearly missed.

Rest in peace, Augustine's Mom.

2009-12-29T17:03:00.002+08:00

Avatar 3D was totally AWESOME, I rate it 5 big fat stars, so much that baby says he wanna watch it again. Prata and Mee Goreng at Changi Village after th movie.

I tell myself this is just one of th roughest patch in my life, i'll just have t pull through this stage. 2010 comes and it will all be a whole new year, start everything from scratch and make something out of myself, i hope there'll be a whole load of people giving me th support and understanding i need.

There's many things i wanna do, but some people just don't have th time for me:(

Anyway, all of you must watch AVATAR.

merry christmas, happy new year and and chinese new year is coming soooooon, i love th most. $_$

2009-12-28T21:15:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 20TH TO OUR DEAR FF.

Celebration for her with th usual drinking boys at Amber last night. Th start of it was enjoyable, but it all changed towards th end.Knocked off at 3 am and boyf allowed me t keep FF company for th remaining time before sunrise. My heels almost broke from all her swaying and swaying.

Steamboat tonight at xiong's place, might not be going or probably will drop by later. I'm gonna watch awesome avatar 3d with my love my love my love:)))))

2009 is coming t an end in two days, it's been a good and bad year, for everybody i guess.

NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION

1. GET A JOB

2. DRINK LESS ALCOHOL

3. LOVE MYSELF

4. EAARN MORE THAN ENOUGH MONEY

5. stop going to boat quey. haha.

Avatar 3d with my baby later:)))))))

2009-12-24T18:01:00.002+08:00

It's Christmas tonight but m not feeling it at all, it just seems like any other day, i guess this is what happens when you start growing older and older, it freaks me out just thinking bout it. Maybe the scientists should invent an immortality pill, i would get it at all cost.

There are just too many things on th list that i haven't done, it's so taxing. Phone line's got suspended, phone bills unpaid, no job and yet m still fooling around, what th hell was i even thinking, honestly.

By 11th January 2010, Blk 341 Hougang Ave 7 #03-451 will become my history. Divorce settled, house sold, finally it's a new chapter for mommy, hope all goes well. More or less, there should be no more hindrance and th only thing left t do is t look for a house and rayner's with me.

High chances are that I'll be spending christmas with th norm at rayner's place, either that or i'll be with <3(if i don't remember wrongly) at Firuz's place.

Somewhere over th rainbow, where's th rainbow?

2009-12-19T16:50:00.002+08:00

Get a JOB

GET A GOD DAMNED JOB!

Life is getting so so sooooo stale, it's rotting, and I still thought it'd be awesome t not work.

Boyf hates th fact that i'm working at BQ, but i sort of enjoy it there sometimes. We just have differences that we cannot resolve due t th fact that he feels that is not right so he won't give in t me and I want t do what i want t do so i don't wanna give in either. But, fuck it.

QLX with th norm after work at amber yesterday, didn't intend t go initially cuz i didn't really feel like drinking but went down for th sake of my two ladies, K & FF.

Recently, I found that it was a relieve that i left him. His friends, people whom i thought were his "BRUDDERS", th bad things about him were coming from them all. It makes me laugh, really. He claimed he's changed, i was skeptical about that sentence and fact is nobody proved him right, not one.

Steamboat, anybody? nobody? Incessant cravings, it's killing me inside.

你听了很多你说了很多
你都没有错错在我太寂寞

2009-12-16T16:34:00.003+08:00

Caught Storm Warriors last night at downtown east's cathay. Being a first timer into th theatre at downtown east, i got so amazed that they have a table at every seat. HAHA.

Steamboat tonight with xuanfan nd maybe some other people as well at Ang Mo Kio, probably could catch a movie after that.

K just called for Zouk tonight, i think Botak's gonna slaughter me and feed me t the pigs before i can even leave th house, but let's just try.

New Year's Resolution

a. Stop fooling around (Mummy and Botak's definition for GOING OUT)

b. Be serious in whatever I do

c . Have some sense of urgency

d. Earn alot of money so i can enjoy recklessly:)

2009-12-04T18:05:00.003+08:00

Finally we've decided t bring our asses down t ikea and courts on wednesday after weeks of planning t go. There was this cute red boots ikea was selling for th coming festive season so we bought a pair for my mom.

2012 after that with mommy, bros and sis. Th whole entire movie wasn't supposed t be funny at all, but due t th screaming and shrieking by th girl sitting beside botak, th both of us kept laughing throughout th entire movie, wtf. HAHA.

I suggested going elsewhere after th movie but, A refuse t wanna go anywhere. Th most annoying part isn't about him refusing t go elsewhere with me, when we reached home he decided t go t th canal opposite my carpark t fish. F-ed up.

FF wants t have sushi buffet/steamboat, i'm feeling rather lazy now though, but i'll try t push my lazy bums into th bathroom.

And lastly, for my girlfriend,

Princess Vernis' having festive season promotions all th way from 01st Decemeber 2009 to 13th February 2010.

Call or Sms for an appointment @ 67330805/96575000
69A, Killiney Road.

2009-12-01T13:41:00.003+08:00

Azzura on sunday for cheryl's birthday with K, lou and mother. I haven't set foot into sentosa even since th closure of km8 and m back only after 8 whole months.

Finally most of th birthdays are over and we're left with FF. Speaking of which, I actually feel bad as i haven't been contributing much t th birthdays due t my own financial crisis.

Whistle has been very very attention seeking these days, i really don't know why.

Job-hunting now.

2012 tomorrow & grocery shopping after that:) love.

2009-11-29T16:43:00.002+08:00

Finally all the stressing and rushing is over for K. I would consider her celebration as quite a success, no hiccups, no complaints. It was fun though, doing up th place and doing up ourselves.

Cheryl's birthday tonight at azzura, not sure if m going, still worn out from yesterday.

Nap, later.

2009-11-26T01:50:00.004+08:00

With no income heading into th bank account, i got money from dad for a much needed retail therapy. I was elated but not for long, after i shared my entire loot with boyf, i got chided by him instead.... what a total turn off.

Well, th plan today wasn't entirely retail therapy but more of scouting for th perfect dress for K's birthday, which unknowingly led us t spending more than what we were supposed t. All in all, i still find it worthwhile, cept for th boyf part though.

Anyway, good night world.
ilu, imu♥

2009-11-22T05:08:00.002+08:00

It is all th time that someone will allow me t be dependent on them, which is something i don't want due t bad experiences.

I have been having bad cravings for Mcdonald's vanilla ice cream cone, and boyf is always nice enough t try his best t fulfil my wants. Be it fatigue, sleep loss or pushing off other engagements, this is one of th many reasons i looove him so much and being together for four months actually felt like forever.

My apologies for th ugly layout, m still trying t figure out th entire template and codes and such.

Oh, girlfriend's shop. (tho i know th traffic volume here isn't that high, no harm helping:))
Please do give your support for one of th loveliest girlfriend of mine. Manicure and Pedicure, located at 69A, Killiney Road(Princess Vernis).

It's a 5 mins walk from Somerset MRT(Exit A) or opposite Lee Wei Song School Of Music(if you do know where is it). For enquires/appointments, you can contact
sheryl@67330805/9657-5000.

Princess' Vernis promotion from 12th to 31st November:
Express Manicure and Pedicure
- $24.00/person
- $20.00/person if you bring a friend along
Classic Manicure and Pedicure
- $45.00/person
- $40.00/ person if you bring a friend along

Do give your support please.

2009-11-19T12:20:00.003+08:00

With K's 21st birthday round th corner, guess i'll get a little busy to ensure it turns out perfect.

I've got two interviews today, first in town then another at jurong and m still contemplating if i wanna go for th one at jurong cuz it's a little out of th way. But, hopefully i can get th one at town though, 2 mins walking distance t pan's shop, haha, so i can visit her everyday till she gets so tired of looking at me.

Alrightos, gotta get busy again....

2009-11-15T16:01:00.000+08:00

The demise of a dear friend came as a shock.
Rest in peace, Aug.

2009-11-12T10:34:00.002+08:00

Status : Jobless:)

Having lots of time t myself definitely wasn't as gratifying as having a job, not th part about being jobless but more of th humdrum routine resulting to incessant cravings for differnet kinds of food everyday.

Boyf moved back t hougang with me, his entire house is undergoing a huge overhaul for two months. He's not been adapting well due t th non-airconess in my house and he's still got more than 50 days before we can go back t his house.

I dreamt A passed away and i was wailing so badly in th dream, i woke up still sobbing. wtf. Th dream was sort of bizarre and preposterous. He was a famous man at some event and he was assassinated by a bunch of NINJAs. I guess he's been feeding my mind with too much action packed movies.

Yesterday was Sakura with boyf at buangkok. Apart from th regular vegetables nd beancurd, we had chilli crab and sambal stingray. I was surprised by th freshness of th seafood they have or it could possibly be that they have a wonderful chef.

You know when you dine at those chinese zi char store, their crabmeat sticks t th shell nd it gets so annoying because munching on a big portion of crabmeat would be so much more satisfying than having them in shreads, isn't it? Well, th crab i had at sakura never had a single part which stubbornly sticks on t th shell. The best part of it is you get t choose th crab, isn't it great? I love it, totally.

Today, i feel like pepperlunch-ing, anybody??
Today, i feel like watching 2012 as well.

2009-10-02T01:08:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, you just don't realise th things that you do.

Batam later. See you when i'm back.

Good night, love you.

2009-09-30T18:48:00.003+08:00

Decision at th eleventh hour t do powerhouse for Happy 21st.

I was so sloshed, I couldn't even recall who came by, what i verbalized.

I remember having a conversation with peiling by th bar. She spotted me, and it took me 5 seconds of gazing right at her face before i felt a tinge of sadness, heartache penetrating through th quintessence of my heart nd, i recognised her. Life goes on nd if I don't walk hand in hand with life's pace, I'm just gonna be left behind. We had a few drinks or shooters according t th picturesque memory of th night i stored in my braindrive.

Th night was definitely an escapade, K made all this possible and not forgetting th people i love as well; BF, FF, Jane, Pan & bf. I don't remember when we starting jumping around, but i remember FF started it? Haha.

Poison for th night.
3 bottles of martell, a round of lemondrop nd jagerbombszxzsxzszx.

Th girls got me a pretty blingy pendent from Citigems. Thanks to J, FF, PY, Alex, Marc, Vic nd Mother Quek.

K's handcrafted present, you see love in it, I call it th bestfriend's love♥.

Now i have t start cracking my brain for K's birthday, A's birthday nd FF's birthday.

nd i have so much t say, maybe next time.......

2009-09-22T08:06:00.004+08:00

I don't wanna work!!!
But i want money.

Turning 21 in 4 days time, i have no idea how i'm going t do it. Not celebrating though, not in th mood t.

I have been telling myself t complete my car nd bike license, but i don't seem t be completing it. I AM STILL STUCK AT PRAC 5, bloody stupid practicals.

Don't call this a blog, it's a complain space, why do i keep complaining every single god damn day. ROAR!

jobless.
penniless.

Get a director, rewrite my life.

*note t self
stop being such a lazy bum.

Oh, nd i love aliens now so ignore those pictures by th side please:)

2009-08-23T18:06:00.002+08:00

Honestly, i hate th reactions. I think i need a break, life's moving too fast.
How about killing me, anyone?

Can you find out by yourself? because i don't have th habit of telling nd i don't like it when you keep questioning. sigh.

Tendered my resignation few days back, i don't need t be a money changer anymore! hoho.

i have been drinking a little too often these days, shall we take a break?

2009-07-06T06:20:00.005+08:00

Caught Transformers with hairmie and botak. awesome. I'm craving for BCM, anyone??

Thailand trip was good..... getting drunk on th first day and being dragged out of bed th next day at 8.30 fucking AM t go t th temple, was worth it though. Beautiful and very tall.

Went t three temples, but i'll only post pictures of this temple cuz it's th best looking temple. Th other two weren't as grand as this. I'll do th rest another time.

it's time t look on th brighter side of my life now.

I'm starting t miss last week.

hopefully im on th right track now.

2009-07-05T17:03:00.002+08:00

It's been a lovely week(:

Back t singapore on monday afternoon from Thailand, and one whole week of break before i start work tomorrow):

2009-06-19T05:31:00.003+08:00

someone who means what they say

someone who'll be there no matter what

someone who loves my family

someone who loves themselves

someone who listens

someone who can teach me

someone who goes out with me

someone who spends quality time with me

someone who loves my friends

someone who holds my hand

someone who walks with me

you were never........

will never.......

stay close.........

we were apart since i dont know when?

~~i don't want you.~~

i don't know.

2009-06-17T03:53:00.002+08:00

The reason i haven't been on this space for sucha long time is because, i've had an unpleasant 1 month.

Like i said, it's set, no more chance for redemption, i swear. I will live my life th way i want it, without having t think about anything else.

might be going for interview at sands tomorrow, not sure yet. will be off t BKK end month, a very much needed break t release myself of all th pent up emotions.

Been spending too much time doing nothing. I almost forgot bout my bestfriends, girlfriends.

FF has a boyf now. sweet. and i am single now, *o_o*

Sleep now, good night.

Self reminder
*Stop taking Cab
*Stop being Late
*Love myself!!!

2009-05-18T02:48:00.001+08:00

Mommy hamster gave birth....... AGAIN.
Anyone wants a pet hamster? i've got additional 5 added t th family now. haha.

2009-05-15T04:27:00.004+08:00

Got home about an hour ago, work's quite tiring, everybody's clearing up th mess and dust after th renovation. New concept at helipad now, hopefully there will be crowd. Kitchen's on th way, i don't have t call taglio anymore:)

I did mention that th next few posts would be pictures since i don't know when, but i'm too tired, there's work that has yet t be completed and they are due like... later??

These two days will be botak/adrian's last weekend with us, so sad:((( Work on weekends are gonna be so boring.

I wanna change this dumb blogskin away, but..... i'm plain lazy. haha, i'm a very very very lazy girl, anyone wanna do it for me??

Oh, mummy and Jonathan came over t helipad t visit me today, not forgetting th surprise visit from K th best-est darling and Wei Er Na as well. Sooooo sweet*big wide smile*

Guess i really gotta leave th seat and get my butts on bed, i still have lots t clean and move later on.... BORING!!!!

AND I STILL NEED T GO T TH BANK!!!! I know it doesn't sound like alot, BUT IT'S ALOT TO ME!!! I'M SOOOOO FUCKING LAZY!!!! Okay, maybe i'll snap some pictures of new helipad and put them up... tomorrow, if i don't feel lazy. HAHA.

2009-05-13T17:01:00.003+08:00

Life is so tiring, i've been tolerating these nonsense for 3 years, must i go on tormenting myself? Feels like all's unchanged, it's still th same.

People who care has been telling me to move on and all, but i still stay put. so silly.

2009-05-12T23:33:00.005+08:00

Th next few posts coming up would most likely be pictures way back since i don't know when.

My hamsters gave birth in march, th baby hamsters were as tiny as my pinky when they first came out and pinkish in colour, soooo pretty.

Daddy Hamster

Mommy Hamster

Super adorable.

2009-05-12T04:28:00.006+08:00

I haven't been doing much here, so much t th extent where kerou says, your blog come period uh? every month one post. haha.

Km8 is history and now some of us are at helipad. Located at th central, its quiet on weekdays, so if you guys just wanna chill out, away from th hustle and bustle of city life, you might like t come down help helipad generate sales. haha. Happy hour's everyday 6pm-9pm, 1-4-1 on glass housewines, housepours and beer.

I love weekends, where i still get t see people like loulou and elijah, but poor lou seems t be troubled these days, hope all will be well. Not forgeting some new colleagues/friends made at helipad, they're so fun t be around with, th bar guys, they really can make your day, esp. botak. haha, but i don't like th name botak, sounds like he's got no hair.

I miss th girls, haven't been able t spare much time ever since i started work at Helipad, gotta find time really soon, cuz i miss K and FF so muchhhhhh.

OH, windsor came t pick kerou up on saturday after work, we intended t go for supper but got into a minor accident instead. It was pouring and i guess his brakes or tyres were quite worn out, and he collided at th car at th traffic lights, causing an immediate bump on my forehead, wonderful *clap hands*. It hurts so bad it gave me a headache, so much i couldn't get t sleep.

Went t th clinic before work today and th doctor wanted me t go t th hospital but i rejected, so she applied some cream and bandaged th bump, if th headache comes again i'll have t go t th hospital, doc says):

I will never end th day without logging in t FB, restaurant city is sort of..... addictive?

MY RESTAURANT:)))

Cliff and Joey were such sweeties last sunday:) We went for steamboat together, celebrate mother's day(they call me mummy). No pictures, as usual. Cliff was damn bastard, Jojo was saying he had school and all so he couldn't go home late and his mom would scold him. Cliff then said t him, YOUR MOTHER HERE WHAT!!! trying t be funny, always.

Sleep now, Good night.

2009-04-01T12:51:00.002+08:00

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS!!!

Km8's officially gone, other than th main house, th rest has been torn down. Quite upset for th fact that i've been there for th past two years and now it's an empty tanjong beach. At least our last party was a blast.

Party for th guys of km8 tonight at helipad, gotta go now:)

2009-03-21T18:02:00.002+08:00

Marcella's birthday celebration with FF, Jane and K at amber 21 followed by 12th element. Pictures.... only if jane sends them over.

Not feeling too well today, so skipped work. Gotta rush down t th bank and might be heading for marcella&chinwai's birthday celebration, buffet at marcella's house.

And, i think i lost my camera, i can't find it. Okay, gotta shower now.

2009-03-20T12:14:00.002+08:00

Guess i won't be updating this space anytime very soon. Got lots t settle, job interviews, closing party and th likes.

Km8's lease ending this month end, th last party at km8 will be on th 28th march. Km8's gonna be history, been here for th past 2 years of my life, haha, seen drunkards and fighters and beach babes and not forgetting some of th most wonderful people who works at km8, i don't think i will forget this place very soon))):

2009-02-12T11:39:00.002+08:00

I'm so tired of being here

Suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

'Cause your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried

I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream

I'd fight away all of your fears

I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have

All of me

You used to captivate me

By your resonating light

Now I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your face it haunts

My once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away

All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried

I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream

I'd fight away all of your fears

I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have

All of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me

I've been alone all along

2009-02-04T15:06:00.004+08:00

Had swensen's with K in th middle of th night, lovely.

K had Coit Tower and me, th banana split. I've never fancied strawberry ice creams so i got th guy t replace my strawberry ice cream with chocolate. And yes, we've been very lazy, K asks me out only when she has her white four wheeled machine.

Tomorrow YC-ing with colleagues, i don't even know who's gonna be there, haha.

2009-02-02T14:01:00.002+08:00

Alex, Py, Shermaine, J, Me and FF.

Not much for cny.
Blackjack-ed at alexis'.
Blackjack-ed at Shermaine's.
Mahjong-ed at alexis'.

2009-01-07T23:12:00.002+08:00

Saw this when i went supper-ing @ newton last week. I think th person selling these two bicycles would receive much more prank calls instead of genuine buyers.

2009-01-07T18:12:00.002+08:00

a brand new year, it's really time i should have a brand new start. I don't like what i have, and th life that i am leading now is not appeasing me in any ways as well.

If you won't disappear from my sight, i will disappear from your sight. I'm sorry but i really don't feel like i wanna see you anymore, i'll start all my silly antics, i'll go crazy. soon.

i need t revamp my life.

2008-12-20T00:51:00.002+08:00

I thought it was good t just sit by and chill by myself with a mug a beer t go with and so i did, today, right now as i put this post up.

I'm getting overly paranoid over th things that i have done and decided, where did i go wrong?

I thought i was in for a little surprise, but no, i'm a fool, a very foolish one. You wouldn't believe how stupid i was if you were t hear bout it. sigh, perhaps i just had little too much.

i shouldn't have..........

我不想再配合, 你太多的规则.

2008-12-13T14:24:00.003+08:00

爱到心都碎了还是舍不得.......

2008-12-12T15:28:00.002+08:00

Sexiest 20, K.

Buffet @ Novotel

No pictures, still we had fun, but th sexy birthday girl didn't join us for th after buffet session. Buffet was so-so, probably a 5/10, due t th small variety of food that was available.

2008-12-09T12:09:00.002+08:00

yesterday was awesomeeeeee, i'll put th pictures up when i've got th time.

and and and, i'm very tired of all th nonsense, if you wanna go, go.

2008-11-23T05:11:00.000+08:00

for you.

2008-11-22T03:22:00.001+08:00

made such a big blunder,

im sorry, yous

2008-11-19T05:36:00.002+08:00

My closest companion, WEI SI LU.
He, will never be replaced:)

2008-11-19T02:54:00.003+08:00

Whistle & Soksi.

FUNNY PICTURES

Ferlynn.

Mommy.

Santos.

Sutra.

Th nonsense-ful

The most capable in trying t be as retarded as possible........ MARCUS.

Retardedness is contagious.......
he passed th disease t my mom

and t my brother as well...

and at th end of th day, still very loving.
Hello marcus, be glad that your pictures are up here((:

2008-11-14T15:41:00.003+08:00

My life is very much in a whirlwind now,

very messy and chaotic.

I do not feel like i wanna bother about anything now,

it makes me sick t even think about it.

Someone, kill me? please.

On a lighter note, steamboat at peiying's house was fantastic. Everyone turned up, every single one incuding th always missing mother quek and phua xiu hua.

And, I've decided do away th perm and make my hair straight.

2008-10-31T04:03:00.004+08:00

i am very sad/down/upset, whatever you guys call it.

m feeling:(((((((( x100000000 times

I'm a prawning hero now,

thats th only thing m smiling about.

and, i just don't need more headache now, please.

2008-10-22T03:11:00.005+08:00

I don't know how long i'll continue this way either.
i hate you but i love you. i like you too.

Sometimes, you don't get t decide so you wait.
But waiting....... th feeling is indescribable.
It gets unimaginably confusing t th extent where,
waiting becomes a habit you cannot kick off.
You don't know, t put in more effort,
t stay th way it is or t just chuck it all away.
I, don't know now, what i feel for you and you.
wished i knew.

A perplexed state of mind,
thats me, for now.

Mez says,
when you're in a relationship,
not every decision must be a wise move.
I was quite bemused over this line.
then i wonder,
why i always spend sleepless nights
sometimes with K,
looking for th wisest decisions.

Xiu Hua says,
Treat guys like bra and sweets,
slowly pick and choose,
th most comfortable and tastiest one.
My life would have been so much better,
if i had been like this, i suppose?

Right now, m feeling ~~stuck~~ very very stuck.
Like how th poor prawn was stuck in th gap
with my feet on top,
th last time i went prawning with steph and mez.
Then i try t wriggle my way out,
realising that i got hooked on,
then thrown into th net.
still waiting for th right time to get out.

M still infested by so many issues, esp. home.
How? Bf won't even try to help make things better.

And, you will never know how heart wrenching it was,
t see that. idk why either. why?

一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累

2008-10-21T01:13:00.003+08:00

yas ton naci , yasan nawisg nihts emitem os

very very tired.
This is what you call nonsense.

2008-10-14T03:22:00.003+08:00

Earlier on, whistle tried to be friends with K's soksi(brownie), but ended up with my dear little wei si lu being afraid of th 5 mths old retriever, haha.

Then there was this guy who brought his 3 year old husky and retriever to play with whistle and soksi, and ended up with little soksi being bullied by th big boys, funny funny. They help my whistle take revenge, MUAHAHAHA, kidding K.

Second lesson commences tomorrow, not really looking forward to it cuz i know i won't pass th second prac with just one lesson:(((

XI JUN, because calling xi jun makes you sound so dirty and unwanted, hahaha. Im helping you maintain your prettiness and wanted-ness, so i call you jermaine. Jermaine is a very sweet name lo. Say thank you. WAHAHAHA!!

And to my sexyyyyy cousinsssss,
Mcke if you don't have my number, you could have gotten it from gwen or my sis lo, NO HEART!!!!! M having my lessons at CDC, go find my number, drop me a msg and i'll tell you th details.
Gwen, come back work uh!!!!! Then you'll have moneyyyy, then you can take lessons with me!!! and yes, i'll go into details another time when i see you or hear from you as well.

I don't know why m replying tags in my post, probably i can type longer sentences at one go when i do it here. haha, nonsense.

Been seeing ferlynn more often than usual, which is not a bad thing. I see she's having some troubles these days so i'll be there to listen babe, anytime i'm just a call away from your pinky.

don't you realise communication between us is really really low these days??
CBD soon, i think.
why don't you do something??

2008-10-11T02:11:00.002+08:00

I PASSED MY LESSON ONE!!! HOOO-HOOO!!!!!

Very very surprising. Now i have cancel th other two LESSON ONES that i have actually booked in advance, for th fact that i think im so stupid i would alot of lesson ones before i can pass.

Jermaine, if it means giving up my pracs for having no sun, i'd do that. haha, th sun will still be there no matter what. i've already half melted today.

i gave you another month, that's all you have left, remember.

2008-10-10T00:30:00.002+08:00

Waterfall kills.
I won't drink waterfall, anymore.

Amazingly, baby wasn't pissed at me for getting drunk:)
Lazing at home for the whole day, hangover-ing.
tomorrow's my fourth practical but still stuck at lesson 1.
i hope there's no sun tomorrow, i will melt.

2008-10-06T03:07:00.003+08:00

i don't like today, bad day.
i prefer yesterdays,
i still bother, at least.

Then again, i wished you were back.

Come back?

2008-09-23T02:23:00.004+08:00

i think i don't know you anymore.
you seem so much like a stranger,
don't you think so?
you are not gentle to me anymore.
you do things rough, don't you think so?
you don't pacify me, not anymore.
i try to move closer,
you pushed me further away.
i think i hate you now,
i think you suck too.
you think so??

paranoid.

who are you??
I'm gonna crash soon cuz i cannot find you.
are you gonna let me find you?
probably just let me be,
and i might be better off after this, just maybe.

Then again, i think i lost myself as well.
I go out all th time, you know??
to find us.
But it's taking too long,
i feel so drained out, tedious.

i thought i applied superglue to my lips,
because i've been so quiet.

~~You're stupid~~i'm stupid
~~cuz you're not sensitive~~cuz i need so much attention
~~towards me,~~from you,
no more, not anymore.

are you gonna come back soon??
anytime soon? very soon?
sigh, i don't know.
you know??

[edit]
Stranger, i call you.
bacause tonight you made my tear fall.
you just murdered me, again.
but tomorrow i will smile again,
cuz im forced to forget,
the tear tht fell tonight.
They have never received support from you,
NEVER.

2008-09-22T03:30:00.002+08:00

This week is a very exciting week, i love.

I hate K, she didn't bring anything back for me from HK.
How could you?? sad sad.

okay, tuesday is coming, so is wednesday, thursday and friday not forgetting saturday and sunday too.

NonsenseFUL, i think m too tired. Good Night guys.

2008-09-20T12:57:00.003+08:00

thought that you were changing, but you weren't.

This whole thing is in a wreck now, m starting to not like it anymore.
i'm trying to maintain this, but since i don't see it in you anymore, i don't see why i have to be th only one putting in effort.

2008-09-18T03:24:00.003+08:00

you didn't realise that i'm always th peacemaker, do you?
you don't know how annoying it is when i keep trying to make peace and yet you still chose to remain stubborn all th way, do you?
you always think that i can remain strong on my own,
but truth is i cannot,
and i force myself to do so,
to make us "so happy together".

because everyday will be th day that i will fall for you, over again♥.

2008-09-17T02:57:00.002+08:00

Because tonight will be the night that i will fall for you......

Hongkong cafe with K just earlier on, she's going on a vacation(again..) with her family this thursday till over the weekend. Pray hard that she better bring some goodies back for me.

My alarm hasn't been working...... i guess the problem is me, not the alarm. Cuz it's been going on for sometime, i cannot wake up on time, so i was thinking to myself probably i didn't set it properly. So these few times i always double check and make sure the alarm is set before i close my eyes. BUT IT'S NOT WORKING, i never remember hearing my alarm ring and by the time i open my eyes, 10:30 am, awesome.

Tomorrow's date with boyfriend is cancelled:((( He's got something on. So tomorrow's gonna be a boring day, can someone date me pleaseeeeee.

Oh, and i've got announcement to make.....
*MY BIRTHDAY'S COMING!!!*

It's quite sad actually, m turning old. I'm hitting the 2!!!

why is it that i want it but i don't get it?
why do i have to be the one to wait?
It's wrong, all so wrong.
can you give me something better?
something new?
this is not what i want,
i want something more than just these.....
i've always tried to be nice, didn't i?
but you didn't.

Good night, dear friends, close friends and best friend♥

don't make me change my mind , you.

2008-09-06T23:58:00.002+08:00

Didn't take alot of photos from th trip, but if you wanna see it,

http://scarletstar-xoxo.blogspot.com

2008-08-23T23:49:00.002+08:00

Pictures from th trip are not with me yet, so i'll continue another day.

Bangkok with K.

2008-08-21T00:59:00.005+08:00

Four nights of missing my baby love and im finally back in singapore. Flew Thai Airways to Bangkok from Thursday 14 Aug 08 to Monday 18 Aug 08 with my all-time favourite K where we missed our morning flight back to singapore, Joke of th year.

Phone bill's gonna explode from all th oversea calls. Shopping is fun, but shopping consecutively for four days is definitely exhausting and th super comfy bed at Novotel is a must after a whole day of walking. My calves were aching from all th walking by th fifth day, super weak.

Th Chatuchak weekend market wasn't any fun since it was way overcrowded nd th heat was unbearable for people like me( i need air-con), probably if someone could provide me with a portable air-con, i wouldn't mind shopping there since i saw a quite a number of pretty clothes. Th puppies there were awesome, i loved it. They can fit snugly in my palms nd they weigh like nothing.

Since th heat was killing us, we walked over t JJ Mall, right beside Chatuchak nd air conditioned. It was heavenly after all th squeezing nd pushing.

to be continued...............

Th continuous yawning hints that bedtime is here.
Sweet Dreams.

2008-08-09T23:07:00.002+08:00

Guess i'll only be updating my blog th week after th next. Everyone's blog has been quite dead, ferlynn's th worst, super dead.

2008-07-24T13:29:00.010+08:00

I haven't been updating because i come over t my boyfriend's house almost every day nd he hogs on t th computer. After twenty days from my last post, i finally manage t use th computer cuz he's not at home:)))

Supper at macpherson yesterday wasn't very fantastic, we had kway chap. It wasn't supposed to be that bad from what i remember, but like K, i prefer th one at Bugis.

K just got her wisdom tooth taken out, her poor cheeks are like swollen nd she can't smoke for fear of infection, haha.

Ken made me take a picture of this big thing driving past Km8, all th time.

Some very outdated pictures.

Whistle.

Th girls night-out @04 july 2008

Km8.

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My ugliest bestfriend did mask for me, making me as ugly as her:)

I've got cravings for KFC, Sakae Sushi, Ba Chor Mee and Rosted duck rice, right now.

2008-07-04T01:29:00.002+08:00

Im staying home tonight, so tonight is gonna be a boring night.
i cannot smell my boyfriend's smelly smell.
i cannot smell my boyfriend's smelly bed.
i cannot see my boyfriend's retarded face.
:(

Today was spent at bugis street with
My all-time favourite TEO.
I spent $122.
Bugis makes me tired, there's too many things for my eyes t see, too much noise for my ears t take, too many people t squeeze with nd too warm for my perspiration not t drop. I think they should expand th area nd air condition th whole place so lazy people like me will go there often.

I found out my mom has a nickname, meow meow.
It sounds stupid, i swear, haha.
Next time you see her, call her meow meow
She'll respond, i tried:)
You'll just burst out laughing just like me.

Had kway chap for dinner opp bugisJ.
Caught up a little over dinner.
I realised tht eating hawker food makes me feel more satisfied than having foods like sakae sushi nd all. Cheap nd satisfying.

Then i just realised it's thrifty day today, no cab rides involved, only buses nd trains nd feets.

Our bus ride home was definitely funny when karen decides give up th seat beside her t a man. He was watching some certain video, we don't know what video but it sounded funny cuz he did not use earphones. Everyone around was laughing away. I managed t hold my laughter during th video part, but when he decides tht he wants t listen t music, thr was no way i could hold my laughter anymore. He didn't look like he likes t listen sad songs like qiang qiang sung by ella. He was th joke, everyone's joke. Like very mean right? haha.

Good night.
tmr's gonna be another dreadful workday.

2008-07-03T01:44:00.003+08:00

Status of mind and body right now : Super tired from working.

Km8 is killing me slowly, very slowly. Damn, apart from some of th people at work, nothing else can make me feel better staying in tht damned house for th whole day.

I've been msging "i'll be a little late" too often, i think its just a matter of time when th managers go crazy nd decides t reply me "it's okay, i'll give you a solution so you won't be a little late anymore, just don't come anymore".

Amazingly, after all those a little lates, today was very very late, yet at 11 30(th time i woke up), my phone seems calmer than usual, no missed calls no msges, very wierd, i've never before in my one year plus of working at km8 experienced this before. So i called ken for 5 times before he eventually decides t pick up my call with me apologising profusely, then he said in th most normal tone, "sarong opening". I expected him t raise his voice, i really did. Today is just so amazing.

See how retarded this is, when people start bombarding my phone when i dont turn up for work on time, i get super pissed, but when they don't even call, i feel wierd, seriously. This is not good.

I wanna watch movies, but my boyfriend doesn't want t, sad isn't it.

I think m gonna name all fridays, "FRIDAYS WITH TH FRUITS". These girls has always been meeting up on fridays, for th convienience of most people. Msg from ferlynn stats tht they'll be meeting up at 6:30pm, i doubt i'll be able t turn up tht early, sorry guys.

I gotta head t my ah yi kor kor's house now, bye guys.
love.

2008-06-27T13:36:00.001+08:00

My boyfriend's a super prick when it comes t waking him up. i hate it.

2008-06-20T00:31:00.002+08:00

Last night was horrible, my boyfriend was much more horrible making my night super horrendous. Silly boyfriend of mine mistook th television set for th urinal in his drunken stupor, very very funny.

Whistle had his fur trimmed today, looks neater but yet i still prefer th messier look he had. haha. At th same time, i bought him a whole boxful of cesar with randomly picked flavours nd milk, cuz i realise he hasn't been consuming enough amounts of liquid.

Nd then darling broke his promise t me today which made me super upset with him, i don't feel like talking t him now.

I realised tht m not th only one, you don't know how fcuked up you re, do you? Nd then you stupidly come up with a stupid idea today, who do you think will be interested t join you in this meeting? Honestly, people re entertaining you, just like i am. dumb.

2008-06-19T02:34:00.002+08:00

For th second time, i got so fed up over messing up th whole template. But anyway it's fixed now, all thanks t myself:)

I didn't know people like james actually do read my blog, suprisingly.

Everyday's a tired day, i work work work nd still work, yet i cannot complain, nonsense.
Other than being late, th rest of th responsiblilities weren't neglected at all so wht else do you want from me now? You think ure perfect? Do it ureself nd dismiss me anytime, i don't care. If not, fcuking hire someone new. I know you hate my attitude towards you, but sad t say ure th cause of it, nd for ure fcuking information, i do not quite like you either. You always try t notice other's mistakes so much tht you actually overlook ure own flaws. I don't even fcuking think you feel tht you have flaws, cuz you actually have th cheek t say "can you work like me/be like me?" whatever. yeah , ure perfect k. Go take a knife nd stab ure heart twenty times, then see how perfect you are. stupid asshole.

okay, continue another day, i am very tired now.
good night, you.

2008-06-11T18:32:00.003+08:00

I've not been writing in cuz i was so busy, with work(ayu has left) nd with my boyfriend(he's been bringing me out((:) Nd now i have t because people(e.g. rena), they start realising tht my posts haven't been new.

I've been neglecting whistle, cuz i haven't been home t sleep for th past many many days which i don't even know how many, with work keeping me away from home as well. Eversince ayu left, i've chalked up 48 Hours of overtime hours within two weeks, how wonderful.

Baby brought me t this place, 97. I guess most people know of this place. But other than being able t smoke right inside nd this particular singer there, i don't find this place nice t be at at all for th fact tht they blast techno right after th live band. I didn't know singapore still has big places like this. haha.

Sometimes, i find tht my best friend is especially cute. Just th other day karen called me up, nd she can just go on nd on nd on cuz she finally spoke t her sister over msn after one month. total nutcase. We've been going on for 5 years or so nd i don't know how we actually could tolerate with each other's nonsense nd stupidity for so long. Karen i know ure gonna say imm th one who's stupid instead of both of us, don't live in self denial k, you know you always do stupid stuff:)))

Okay guys, i gotta go down nd get yummy homemade dinner by baby's mommy now.
bye.

2008-06-02T12:18:00.002+08:00

Ayu has officially left km8 nd now thr's only me left, sad. I'll hafta be doing full shifts most of th days until a new full timer comes in, damn.

But anyway, jesse will be coming down for interview this week, so hopefully she gets th job.

Baby nd i got th same phone recently, w960i. It's quite annoying cuz sometimes i just don't know how t use it. haha. but then, i guess its just a matter of getting used t it.

Im currently feeling super tired now nd wished that i don't have t go t work, but....... m still going, cuz shu shu made almond jelly today:)))

Been going t baby's place these days, love it.

I do not like whores/sluts, nd G, you are one. fcuk you.

2008-05-15T21:21:00.001+08:00

I see that whore has other haters too. wonderful now. serves you right bitch. disgusting.