Th only time i ever turn to doing this is when i get really upset and voicing it out doesn't help at all.

I hate staying in your house, not because i hate your house. I hate it when i don't go to work and your parents have much more t say and ask than my own mother. I hate it when i go out late at night and th people who are going on and on in my ears are your parents rather than my own. I feel tortured staying in your house with your mom this your mom that, your dad this and your dad that. Th more you do it, th more it's gonna make me dislike them. It is only due t th fact that i still respect them as your parents that i still answer and entertain to their naggings, and i know thay care(sort of). Honestly, it is driving me up th wall. Best of all, list me ten things i could do to keep myself entertained when i'm bored:) I couldn't do it.

And you, always thinking that you have gone all out, did your best to make this relationship work and make time for me while you juggle with your work and friends. WHAT exactly have you done, please tell me about it. When was th last time YOU asked me out for a movie? In fact, WHEN was th freaking last time you asked me out? Just th two of us, if i have forgotten, that makes it 100%, you won't even remember. Th cold hard truth is, you don't make me happy anymore. Even YOUR friends would make me happier than you did. If this is what was intended from th day we became "in a relationship" status, don't spoil me like how you did at the start. What do you do when i tell you things like this? "OKAY, FINE." and turn away, not giving a fuck at all, AT ALL. Th fact is, you don't care anymore. I have been telling you more I HATE YOUs than I LOVE YOUs, that is definitely not a sign of a healthy relationship. FACE IT, You are simply self centered and care only about yourself and ignorant t those around YOU, and that definitely includes me. All you have now is your fucking job, your fucking god damned work that i hate so much. Don't tell me i'm suffocating you, because clearly, i am not. I don't stop you from going out with friends, I don't stop you from needing time alone, basically, I DON'T STOP YOU FROM DOING ANYTHING. Let's say even if we did go out, when is it that you won't give me a face and tell me you're tired? when is it that you'll go out with me happily and laugh with me? I'm tired of accomodating t you all th time. I feel disgusted going out with you when i always see you going out with your friends and you can be so happy and cheerful. It has been known and forgotten to you that i've been on gastric pills and when i tell you i'm hungry, you tell me not t eat cuz m fat, THAT IS SO SWEET AND HELPFUL AND THOUGHTFUL of you. It's been two months since i started at shaw tower, How many times have you sent me t work? how many times have you picked me up from work? Have you ever come t meet me for lunch? I'm sick and tired of having t spoon feed you with everything, don't you have this thing called initiative?

I would have been very happy with you like you were all i wanted. But you are screwing this up, you are screwing us up with all your fucking i only wanna fucking god damn work and nothing else. And you know, seriously, FCUK YOU AND YOUR GOD DAMNED WORK. I am sick and tired of this damn line and if you want t put this relationship in jeaopardy, I can do it with you! You go to work early and come home late, i put up with it, but why in the world must I still put up with nonsense when i am at home and resting, i can't have peace. I have so many rules and regulations to keep up with in your house. It is driving me crazy. Notice the mood swings i've been having? I don't think you're that blind, but you don't give two flying fucks. TYVM.

I really don't feel like talking to you at all. Don't ask me what happen and th likes, i'm sick and tired of spoon feeding you with information. Wanna see how destruction starts? you missed it, it has started. These pent up feelings are gonna come flying back into your face.


But I never told you, what i should have said, I just held it in. And now, I just miss everything about you.