Th Disaster Behind Every Beautiful Love

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Friday, October 02, 2009

Sometimes, you just don't realise th things that you do.

Batam later. See you when i'm back.

Good night, love you.

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Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Decision at th eleventh hour t do powerhouse for Happy 21st.

I was so sloshed, I couldn't even recall who came by, what i verbalized.

I remember having a conversation with peiling by th bar. She spotted me, and it took me 5 seconds of gazing right at her face before i felt a tinge of sadness, heartache penetrating through th quintessence of my heart nd, i recognised her. Life goes on nd if I don't walk hand in hand with life's pace, I'm just gonna be left behind. We had a few drinks or shooters according t th picturesque memory of th night i stored in my braindrive.

Th night was definitely an escapade, K made all this possible and not forgetting th people i love as well; BF, FF, Jane, Pan & bf. I don't remember when we starting jumping around, but i remember FF started it? Haha.

Poison for th night.
3 bottles of martell, a round of lemondrop nd jagerbombszxzsxzszx.

Th girls got me a pretty blingy pendent from Citigems. Thanks to J, FF, PY, Alex, Marc, Vic nd Mother Quek.

K's handcrafted present, you see love in it, I call it th bestfriend's love♥.

Now i have t start cracking my brain for K's birthday, A's birthday nd FF's birthday.

nd i have so much t say, maybe next time.......

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Tuesday, September 22, 2009

I don't wanna work!!!
But i want money.

Turning 21 in 4 days time, i have no idea how i'm going t do it. Not celebrating though, not in th mood t.

I have been telling myself t complete my car nd bike license, but i don't seem t be completing it. I AM STILL STUCK AT PRAC 5, bloody stupid practicals.

Don't call this a blog, it's a complain space, why do i keep complaining every single god damn day. ROAR!

jobless.
penniless.

Get a director, rewrite my life.

*note t self
stop being such a lazy bum.

Oh, nd i love aliens now so ignore those pictures by th side please:)

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Sunday, August 23, 2009

Honestly, i hate th reactions. I think i need a break, life's moving too fast.
How about killing me, anyone?

Can you find out by yourself? because i don't have th habit of telling nd i don't like it when you keep questioning. sigh.

Tendered my resignation few days back, i don't need t be a money changer anymore! hoho.

i have been drinking a little too often these days, shall we take a break?

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Monday, July 06, 2009

Caught Transformers with hairmie and botak. awesome. I'm craving for BCM, anyone??

Thailand trip was good..... getting drunk on th first day and being dragged out of bed th next day at 8.30 fucking AM t go t th temple, was worth it though. Beautiful and very tall.

Went t three temples, but i'll only post pictures of this temple cuz it's th best looking temple. Th other two weren't as grand as this. I'll do th rest another time.

it's time t look on th brighter side of my life now.

I'm starting t miss last week.

hopefully im on th right track now.

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Sunday, July 05, 2009

It's been a lovely week(:

Back t singapore on monday afternoon from Thailand, and one whole week of break before i start work tomorrow):

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Friday, June 19, 2009

someone who means what they say

someone who'll be there no matter what

someone who loves my family

someone who loves themselves

someone who listens

someone who can teach me

someone who goes out with me

someone who spends quality time with me

someone who loves my friends

someone who holds my hand

someone who walks with me

you were never........

will never.......

stay close.........

we were apart since i dont know when?

~~i don't want you.~~

i don't know.

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Wednesday, June 17, 2009

The reason i haven't been on this space for sucha long time is because, i've had an unpleasant 1 month.

Like i said, it's set, no more chance for redemption, i swear. I will live my life th way i want it, without having t think about anything else.

might be going for interview at sands tomorrow, not sure yet. will be off t BKK end month, a very much needed break t release myself of all th pent up emotions.

Been spending too much time doing nothing. I almost forgot bout my bestfriends, girlfriends.

FF has a boyf now. sweet. and i am single now, *o_o*

Sleep now, good night.

Self reminder
*Stop taking Cab
*Stop being Late
*Love myself!!!

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Monday, May 18, 2009

Mommy hamster gave birth....... AGAIN.
Anyone wants a pet hamster? i've got additional 5 added t th family now. haha.

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Friday, May 15, 2009

Got home about an hour ago, work's quite tiring, everybody's clearing up th mess and dust after th renovation. New concept at helipad now, hopefully there will be crowd. Kitchen's on th way, i don't have t call taglio anymore:)

I did mention that th next few posts would be pictures since i don't know when, but i'm too tired, there's work that has yet t be completed and they are due like... later??

These two days will be botak/adrian's last weekend with us, so sad:((( Work on weekends are gonna be so boring.

I wanna change this dumb blogskin away, but..... i'm plain lazy. haha, i'm a very very very lazy girl, anyone wanna do it for me??

Oh, mummy and Jonathan came over t helipad t visit me today, not forgetting th surprise visit from K th best-est darling and Wei Er Na as well. Sooooo sweet*big wide smile*

Guess i really gotta leave th seat and get my butts on bed, i still have lots t clean and move later on.... BORING!!!!

AND I STILL NEED T GO T TH BANK!!!! I know it doesn't sound like alot, BUT IT'S ALOT TO ME!!! I'M SOOOOO FUCKING LAZY!!!! Okay, maybe i'll snap some pictures of new helipad and put them up... tomorrow, if i don't feel lazy. HAHA.

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Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Life is so tiring, i've been tolerating these nonsense for 3 years, must i go on tormenting myself? Feels like all's unchanged, it's still th same.

People who care has been telling me to move on and all, but i still stay put. so silly.

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Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Th next few posts coming up would most likely be pictures way back since i don't know when.

My hamsters gave birth in march, th baby hamsters were as tiny as my pinky when they first came out and pinkish in colour, soooo pretty.

Daddy Hamster

Mommy Hamster

Super adorable.

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I haven't been doing much here, so much t th extent where kerou says, your blog come period uh? every month one post. haha.

Km8 is history and now some of us are at helipad. Located at th central, its quiet on weekdays, so if you guys just wanna chill out, away from th hustle and bustle of city life, you might like t come down help helipad generate sales. haha. Happy hour's everyday 6pm-9pm, 1-4-1 on glass housewines, housepours and beer.

I love weekends, where i still get t see people like loulou and elijah, but poor lou seems t be troubled these days, hope all will be well. Not forgeting some new colleagues/friends made at helipad, they're so fun t be around with, th bar guys, they really can make your day, esp. botak. haha, but i don't like th name botak, sounds like he's got no hair.

I miss th girls, haven't been able t spare much time ever since i started work at Helipad, gotta find time really soon, cuz i miss K and FF so muchhhhhh.

OH, windsor came t pick kerou up on saturday after work, we intended t go for supper but got into a minor accident instead. It was pouring and i guess his brakes or tyres were quite worn out, and he collided at th car at th traffic lights, causing an immediate bump on my forehead, wonderful *clap hands*. It hurts so bad it gave me a headache, so much i couldn't get t sleep.

Went t th clinic before work today and th doctor wanted me t go t th hospital but i rejected, so she applied some cream and bandaged th bump, if th headache comes again i'll have t go t th hospital, doc says):

I will never end th day without logging in t FB, restaurant city is sort of..... addictive?

MY RESTAURANT:)))

Cliff and Joey were such sweeties last sunday:) We went for steamboat together, celebrate mother's day(they call me mummy). No pictures, as usual. Cliff was damn bastard, Jojo was saying he had school and all so he couldn't go home late and his mom would scold him. Cliff then said t him, YOUR MOTHER HERE WHAT!!! trying t be funny, always.

Sleep now, Good night.

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Wednesday, April 01, 2009

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS!!!

Km8's officially gone, other than th main house, th rest has been torn down. Quite upset for th fact that i've been there for th past two years and now it's an empty tanjong beach. At least our last party was a blast.

Party for th guys of km8 tonight at helipad, gotta go now:)

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Saturday, March 21, 2009

Marcella's birthday celebration with FF, Jane and K at amber 21 followed by 12th element. Pictures.... only if jane sends them over.

Not feeling too well today, so skipped work. Gotta rush down t th bank and might be heading for marcella&chinwai's birthday celebration, buffet at marcella's house.

And, i think i lost my camera, i can't find it. Okay, gotta shower now.

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Friday, March 20, 2009

Guess i won't be updating this space anytime very soon. Got lots t settle, job interviews, closing party and th likes.

Km8's lease ending this month end, th last party at km8 will be on th 28th march. Km8's gonna be history, been here for th past 2 years of my life, haha, seen drunkards and fighters and beach babes and not forgetting some of th most wonderful people who works at km8, i don't think i will forget this place very soon))):

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Thursday, February 12, 2009

I'm so tired of being here

Suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

'Cause your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried

I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream

I'd fight away all of your fears

I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have

All of me

You used to captivate me

By your resonating light

Now I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your face it haunts

My once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away

All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried

I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream

I'd fight away all of your fears

I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have

All of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me

I've been alone all along

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Wednesday, February 04, 2009

Had swensen's with K in th middle of th night, lovely.

K had Coit Tower and me, th banana split. I've never fancied strawberry ice creams so i got th guy t replace my strawberry ice cream with chocolate. And yes, we've been very lazy, K asks me out only when she has her white four wheeled machine.

Tomorrow YC-ing with colleagues, i don't even know who's gonna be there, haha.

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Monday, February 02, 2009

Alex, Py, Shermaine, J, Me and FF.

Not much for cny.
Blackjack-ed at alexis'.
Blackjack-ed at Shermaine's.
Mahjong-ed at alexis'.

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Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Saw this when i went supper-ing @ newton last week. I think th person selling these two bicycles would receive much more prank calls instead of genuine buyers.

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a brand new year, it's really time i should have a brand new start. I don't like what i have, and th life that i am leading now is not appeasing me in any ways as well.

If you won't disappear from my sight, i will disappear from your sight. I'm sorry but i really don't feel like i wanna see you anymore, i'll start all my silly antics, i'll go crazy. soon.

i need t revamp my life.

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Saturday, December 20, 2008

I thought it was good t just sit by and chill by myself with a mug a beer t go with and so i did, today, right now as i put this post up.

I'm getting overly paranoid over th things that i have done and decided, where did i go wrong?

I thought i was in for a little surprise, but no, i'm a fool, a very foolish one. You wouldn't believe how stupid i was if you were t hear bout it. sigh, perhaps i just had little too much.

i shouldn't have..........

我不想再配合, 你太多的规则.

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Saturday, December 13, 2008

爱到心都碎了还是舍不得.......

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Friday, December 12, 2008

Sexiest 20, K.

Buffet @ Novotel

No pictures, still we had fun, but th sexy birthday girl didn't join us for th after buffet session. Buffet was so-so, probably a 5/10, due t th small variety of food that was available.

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Tuesday, December 09, 2008

yesterday was awesomeeeeee, i'll put th pictures up when i've got th time.

and and and, i'm very tired of all th nonsense, if you wanna go, go.

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Sunday, November 23, 2008

for you.

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Saturday, November 22, 2008

made such a big blunder,

im sorry, yous

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Wednesday, November 19, 2008

My closest companion, WEI SI LU.
He, will never be replaced:)

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Whistle & Soksi.

FUNNY PICTURES

Ferlynn.

Mommy.

Santos.

Sutra.

Th nonsense-ful

The most capable in trying t be as retarded as possible........ MARCUS.

Retardedness is contagious.......
he passed th disease t my mom

and t my brother as well...

and at th end of th day, still very loving.

Hello marcus, be glad that your pictures are up here((:

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Friday, November 14, 2008

My life is very much in a whirlwind now,

very messy and chaotic.

I do not feel like i wanna bother about anything now,

it makes me sick t even think about it.

Someone, kill me? please.

On a lighter note, steamboat at peiying's house was fantastic. Everyone turned up, every single one incuding th always missing mother quek and phua xiu hua.

And, I've decided do away th perm and make my hair straight.

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Friday, October 31, 2008

i am very sad/down/upset, whatever you guys call it.

m feeling:(((((((( x100000000 times

I'm a prawning hero now,

thats th only thing m smiling about.

and, i just don't need more headache now, please.

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Wednesday, October 22, 2008

I don't know how long i'll continue this way either.
i hate you but i love you. i like you too.

Sometimes, you don't get t decide so you wait.
But waiting....... th feeling is indescribable.
It gets unimaginably confusing t th extent where,
waiting becomes a habit you cannot kick off.
You don't know, t put in more effort,
t stay th way it is or t just chuck it all away.
I, don't know now, what i feel for you and you.
wished i knew.

A perplexed state of mind,
thats me, for now.

Mez says,
when you're in a relationship,
not every decision must be a wise move.
I was quite bemused over this line.
then i wonder,
why i always spend sleepless nights
sometimes with K,
looking for th wisest decisions.

Xiu Hua says,
Treat guys like bra and sweets,
slowly pick and choose,
th most comfortable and tastiest one.
My life would have been so much better,
if i had been like this, i suppose?

Right now, m feeling ~~stuck~~ very very stuck.
Like how th poor prawn was stuck in th gap
with my feet on top,
th last time i went prawning with steph and mez.
Then i try t wriggle my way out,
realising that i got hooked on,
then thrown into th net.
still waiting for th right time to get out.

M still infested by so many issues, esp. home.
How? Bf won't even try to help make things better.

And, you will never know how heart wrenching it was,
t see that. idk why either. why?

一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累

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Tuesday, October 21, 2008

yas ton naci , yasan nawisg nihts emitem os

very very tired.
This is what you call nonsense.

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